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The Paradox of (my) Introversion

Truth be told, if I had my druthers, I would choose to be alone. No, I do not hate, distrust or fear other folks. I am simply more comfortable with my own company. Life being what it is, I have to cope in a populated world. But, to do so completely robs me of energy and spirit. I have learned to adapt. I have learned to adopt various personae to confront the challenges of a public life. Yet, when all is said and done, I need solitude to regain my vitality.

How can I explain, therefore, the scattered moments of loneliness and isolation? This is my frustration. While I am more likely than not to refuse an invitation, I feel overlooked and abandoned when not included. How do I convey to others that I am neither a snob nor a boor; that I would love to asked, even if I find it hard to accept? Indeed, a paradox. Indeed, a source of great discomfort. One would think that, at my age, I would have figured it all out by now.

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3 Responses to “The Paradox of (my) Introversion”


  1. December 30, 2011 at 2:09 pm

    YO Pete!!

    I’ve always felt the same way. It’s caledl being a ‘introvert’.

  2. 2 Peter
    December 30, 2011 at 4:10 pm

    Yep. Hence the title of my post. 🙂

  3. January 4, 2012 at 11:09 am

    Well as you said is really hard to be alone in a planet of 7 billion. We all need our time to recharge. I am a big time introvert, but my passion to meet people and adventure is bigger. What I don’t like I don’t tolerate, given the choice that I am responsible for my own feelings and destiny. I hope everyone likes me, but I really don’t lose sleep over people judging me, they do and so do I. I just don’t allow my judgment to interfere with me having a good time. In my personal experience when I felt like isolation, it was because I did not feel good about myself. The mind is a wonderful tool and yet it tricks us all the time. I let go of judgments by just observing my mind. No matter what age you are, there are so many wonderful things to see and do. Start making your lfe magical, even when life is not going as planned. Happiness is enjoying life with good and bad things. I always try to show my true personality not all of it of course, but being real is the biggest freedom. Dare to say no sometimes and dare to say yes sometimes. The only time you can not have a chance at having a good life on this material plane is when you are dead, and you are not there . Let go of self judgement , let go of preconception, remember what you learned through your experiences and allow that to alert you to life. Feeling lonely is part of not feeling like you are one with your communities, all of them are your ticket to a better life. Be well and Have a wonderful 2012.


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