Beating a Dead Horse

It has become clear that my discovery and acknowledgement of, and my attempts to cope with, my introversion have been less than efficacious in determining a comfortable place on the planet. I had thought that, once I came to terms with this character positioning and others understood why I behaved the way I do, that all would be right in my world.

To be honest, nothing has really changed. Naming something doesn’t always give control. As it is, I am becoming more and more isolated. By allowing myself guiltless moments alone has somehow signaled that I completely disdain social interaction.

Despite occasional awkwardness, I do invite folks into my space….but I am never invited back; let me emphasize NEVER. I have hosted social gatherings in the neighborhood, yet I have not been invited into anyone’s home. There have been an informal dinner, here and there, but no return invitation. If it were not for family and would spend every holiday alone. If I spend time with anyone, it is always with my initiative.

I am trying valiantly to maintain a semblance of healthy sense of worth, but it is difficult when it seems I have become a pariah. I am no longer young and pretty. I am not of great means. I am, essentially, all I have to offer. Apparently, that is not enough. There are times I am thankful my time on this planet is drawing to a close.



There’s still room in both classes. The beginner’s class begins tomorrow. Don’t miss out.

Saturday March 5th, 12th, & 19th 2 – 4:
• Crochet in Three Sessions by the notable Peter Franzi! Class fee: $65. This is an incredible opportunity to learn the foundations and beyond of crochet with designer and instructor, Peter Franzi. Peter has an article which appears in each issue of Interweave Crochet and his designs can be found in major publications. We are fortunate he resides in the Bay Area and is available for local teaching. This special class will be held in three parts. During your first session you will learn at least 6 of the basic stitches including: single, double, triple crochet, chain, and slip stitch. Starting in your second class you will begin learning pattern reading by making a granny square. And, in your final session you will begin making a scarf and will enjoy a “yarn course” in which Peter will teach you the best choices for yarn for garments and other items. If you’ve had crochet on your mind and would like to learn do NOT miss this amazing course! Sign up early to secure your seat!

March 16th, April 13th, & May 11th 6 – 8:
• Top Down in the Round Crochet Sweater with Peter Franzi. Class fee: $65. Materials: you may choose a yarn in fingering, sport or DK weight. Prereq: Swatch with chosen yarn and hook appropriate for yarn. Come in on March 2 at 6 to consult with Peter about choosing a yarn which will allow us time to order your yarn should it be necessary. What a great workshop to expand your crochet skills! For your first session you will be working the yoke to the chest, the second session will be beginning sleeves, and the last session will concentrate on proper finishing of your garment.

BiStitchual Yarns and Notions
2406 San Pablo Avenue
Pinole 94564
(510) 964-7053


Men’s Crochet Classics

Unbeknownst to me, Interweave has published a collection of my designs which have appeared in Interweave Crochet. How exciting. Many have asked if these designs would ever be available apart from the magazine. Well, here they are… at least those published before this year. Go for it.

Men’s Crochet Classics with Peter Franzi


New Design

Check out a preview of my latest design, the Don’s Day Off Cardigan for Interweave Crochet


Water Lily Washcloth

washMy Water Lily Washcloth pattern is now for sale on Ravelry Check it out.


Waldo (Monochrome) Pullover

I am pleased to announce that I am now able to offer on Ravelry the Waldo (Monochrome) pullover pattern, first published in the Interweave Crochet – Winter 2013 issue. ravelry.com



The Paradox of (my) Introversion

Truth be told, if I had my druthers, I would choose to be alone. No, I do not hate, distrust or fear other folks. I am simply more comfortable with my own company. Life being what it is, I have to cope in a populated world. But, to do so completely robs me of energy and spirit. I have learned to adapt. I have learned to adopt various personae to confront the challenges of a public life. Yet, when all is said and done, I need solitude to regain my vitality.

How can I explain, therefore, the scattered moments of loneliness and isolation? This is my frustration. While I am more likely than not to refuse an invitation, I feel overlooked and abandoned when not included. How do I convey to others that I am neither a snob nor a boor; that I would love to be asked, even if I find it hard to accept. Indeed, a paradox. Indeed, a source of great discomfort. One would think that, at my age, I would have figured it all out by now.

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